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information layout afterlife; v2. carpediem resolution: 1440x900 browser: mozilla firefox disclaimer Sagittariuses are known for their dramatic moods, emotions and actions. Click on 'the who' for more information about me. Click on 'the what' for my entries. Click on 'the exits' for your exit signs. ~~The tagboard's right beside here. Don't say you didn't see it. Please tag! Whoever you are.~~ No more tagboard, find me personally :D	the creator Identity: Junie Lee Wei Ying (PigSoil) Date of Official Existence: 8 December Method of Annihilation: Blasting a pencil through your head. Hi there, I'm J. I like and love many things, and some of the top favourites are writing (hell yeah), algebra (hell yeah), acting (hell yeah), Taylor Swift (hell yeah), friends (hell yeah), family (cough), and you! :D Please be aware that I speak incoherently and pretty much nothing may make sense to you. Because I lost my sanity long ago. TWITTER! FACEBOOK!	Saturday 14 August 2010 It's 3AM at night, and I'm sitting here staring into space, thinking about things. It's amazing how fast this year has gone by. When I look back on yesterday I see myself walking into a class on the second level on the first day of school, a new environment, but surrounded by people I've seen one too many times. And these people have yet to be seen through by me, but yet the year's passing so fast. 7 and a half months have passed just like that. I don't want the year to end. It's tearing me apart. And I can't wait (I really can't wait, because I don't even want it to come) for the impending 2011. And I've met new people I like, new people I hate, new people I'm fine with, new people who will all be a fragment of my memory when the year ends. I hope not, I hope they'll be more than that. 7 and a half months. Time's gone by just like that. People have changed, people have walked in and out of my life, well. It's Life, i'n'it? There'll never be a post that will detail the year. Because words can't express whatever's happened. Each day is a day for new beginnings. Each day is a day for painful endings. Each day is a day to never forget, regardless of how happy or unhappy it went. Each day. The two words are still reverberating in my head. Each day... I don't have much time left in 2010. And I can't help but feel pained that I have no idea how to cherish Each Day. Is it just by living your life to the fullest Each Day? I don't know. But I want the Each Days to remain here. That's impossible, but it doesn't hurt wishing, right? Shoes. Those are what I walk in. Shoes are the things that I walk in, that I walk through my life with. They are the perfect footprint (no pun intended) of where I've walked, how I've walked, and how far I've walked. I should stop sleeping so late and thinking about horrifying things. Saturday 7 August 2010 Just an update on how life is before I walk away from this blog forever. Life is great now. Like, I don't have anymore huge crisises or anything to cry about / over anymore. It's like I'm on a really smooth and traffic-free Route 66. Every part of me is free now. I'm ready to take on whatever's coming my way. But first, to feed my insatiable hunger of... something. Junie Wednesday 30 June 2010 Having wild dreams even I can't interpret. I feel empty. Thursday 24 June 2010 Looks like I moved on. Sometimes, I still think that I can do better with you. And sometimes, I still think that I can do better without you. It's going to be like a vicious cycle. It's not going to stop. Instead, it'll go on forever. Even Love ends quicker. Once it's over, it's over, and you'll feel extremely sad -- but you get to move on with a fresh start. It doesn't go that way in Friendship. I'm sorry, but I can't. In primary school, I committed mistakes I still regret till today. If I make another mistake, I swear I'll regret it till I die. But I don't want to regret. I don't want to fret, I don't want to frown, I don't want to be sad. I just want to smile. Apparently it's not as easy as I thought it would be. It varies, the time you need to pull out of a relationship. In any case, easy or not, I know I am moving on. Even that teeny bit of change in my actions tells me that I'm moving on. I should be happy. For me, and for you. And yes, now I've opened my eyes again, just like how I did in the past. I realized I was better off on the safe side of life. Quote a lyric from Kelly Clarkson's 'Because of You'? Nah, everyone knows the lyrics to that song. I will never, ever take risks in life again, even if that's what I need to do for happiness. Happiness is never eternal, so why bother taking risks for something that's temporary? Small moments in life are satiable enough for me. Happy, happy, moving on. Friday 11 June 2010 There's always a moment in life when you find someone whom you think shares an affinity with you. But don't always trust people so fast. You fall too fast, too deep, and then you fall out of it. How much hurt you'd be feeling is akin to how much you put in for a relationship. The worst part was that I trusted you so much. And now that I've got my reasons for countering whatever you thought about me, I realized that everything was falling apart, so why bother salvaging it? I always thought you were all I need. No one else really mattered anymore. Turns out I was wrong. Well, I've wisened up. I'm not going to let anything hinder my judgment from today onwards. You've proven me wrong, kudos to you. Well, I'm not going to let you in anymore. And it's possible. Everyone has the ability to set a barrier before themselves. But I'm not going to close up completely. I'll be seeking death if I did that. I'm just going to close up on you. I used to think I could do a lot better with you. Now I think I can do better without you. I don't want to stoop to that low a level to keep you here. After all, hasn't this been repeating itself just one too many times in my life? But this time round it hurt me so badly, it's shown me how much I did for this friendship. Guess what? I don't care anymore. Go away. Wednesday 9 June 2010 I'm crying right now. This isn't the first time that I've cried over screwed-up humanity. A man who has committed a mistake deserves to be forgiven. Those who do not forgive are the ones who are committing the unforgiveable mistakes. What the f* did my grandfather do to deserve such emotional isolation? What the f* did he do to deserve (&%(&#(% years of such treatment from his own wife, daughter and son? What the f* did he do (or not do) to incur the wrath of my mother? And finally, what the f* did I do to get such a family? I've whined to about 4 people now. I wish there were actually people I could talk to. And I think I just saw for myself with the naked eye how cold and unloving the human race can really be. Monday 7 June 2010 History repeated. 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